Mind The Gap

Even though I’ve mentioned here before, in several previous posts, that life is innately unpredictable, I don’t think that when I was saying it, I believed it with much conviction.

But after all that has happened so far this year, I’ve developed an unwavering belief in the unpredictable nature of life. You can plan for the future as much as you want to, but be prepared for the possibility that things won’t always turn out as you want or expect them to. As much as we want to believe that we are masters of our own destinies (especially if you're half as neurotic and a bit of a control freak as I am, admittedly) there will always be elements that are out of the realm of our control.

It takes time to swallow this truth. For me, it will take some time for me to accept that certain people are meant to come into your life, and for whatever reason, leave unexpectedly, leaving you behind with gaping holes in your existence, like large cut-outs in your well-thought out and intimately designed architectural plans. These gaps will take time to close, if at all, as you try to reason with yourself, with your friends, with God, what is the Meaning Of It All.

I don’t know if there is a Meaning to be found. Perhaps you'll only be able figure it out in retrospect, when life is lived and you can look back at the journey and the richness of it all. After all, we are but a sum of the people we meet, places we go, and all the things we will say and do, try and taste, fail and accomplish. I believe that eventually, those gaps left behind will slowly be filled with all of these rich experiences that have yet to come.

So while I will always remember and cherish the past, and be grateful for all of the memories, both the good and the bad, I will keep my eye on the horizon and endeavor to embrace whatever is to come my way.

To the expected, and the expectedly, Unexpected.